It’s true to say

that I usually am on here only when I need to rant, to ramble, to vent, etc.

And as good as that is, it makes me realize that when I go back to look at this, I will only see the bad, not the good. So here’s a try for the good things:

1) If I take little breaths at a time, I can see the big picture. I can see that I’ve still got a family, without a doubt one that loves me; I can see that I’ve got people who care about me, and on these days, it doesn’t matter the number; I can see that I’ve got people who make my day, my night, my week with just a smile, a laugh, a comment; I can see that every day is still shining, the world is still growing, the Earth is still turning, life is still going

2) Seeing Angels & Airwaves in 4 days. Four days. I’m not sure why that hasn’t hit me yet. I mean, the band that gets me down to the core, through my veins and cells and to the bone. And it hasn’t hit me that I’m going to see them on Monday, for the first time in about two years. It. Hasn’t. Hit. Me. But many things haven’t lately. It almost feels harder to dwell on the good after it happens, to soak it in instead of moving on. I can’t say I’m confused to why I feel this, but I can say that I wish it was easier.

3) I really couldn’t tell you what I see in him. Or I guess – I could. He’s intelligent, with intentions to use it for good. He puts others first, intentionally. He listens. He’s tolerant, even more so than I am. It’s also that feeling, the good one that makes you feel content beyond a shred of doubt. Yeah, that feeling. I just wish I remembered it more, enjoyed it more, appreciated it more. And it’s that feeling that I don’t have to prove myself around him, that I don’t exactly have to impress or be someone I’m not. I could be happy, be sad, be lazy, be who I am at the exact moment, instead of who I should be or could be.

4) Life. I feel like this should be something to look forward to. On some days, it hits me like a gust of wind: life. How unexpected it is, how unplanned and exciting and exhilarating and monumental and enjoyable and unbelievable and amazing. And it gives me this rush, this excitement. The butterflies, the jitters you get right before you know you’re going to perform in front of a big crowd or be a part of something that matters. Just like that. Imaging life, just life, can give me that rush, that feeling that I can’t wait for tomorrow, for the future. And it’s an amazing feeling that doesn’t require anything at all.

5) Spring.

6) Heaven. Sonic. Sunrises. The simple stuff that happen daily.

life

means different things to different people. In a general sense, it is the same idea. In many general senses, it is the same ideas. It’s happiness, both personally and those around you. It’s the feeling of accomplishment, of fulfillment, of contentment and feeling worth something. It’s also truth, trust, relationships, and the path you leave behind as you take each breath walking forward.

The thing about life is that the meaning and its significance is always changing. That, simply put, is life. Life is many things. But it’s also one: to live. To live is to breathe and so much more.

Today, the meaning of my life is…. to not expect bad things or bad days, to give the day a chance to be good, because if you don’t give it a chance, if you don’t look for it, how else would you know it’s come your way? Take in the good, but also take in the bad. That really is what makes the good as good as it is.